When I got home, I sat on the couch in my house all by myself. I made phone calls to family and friends. It was a rainy afternoon and I sat on the back porch watching it rain and still trying to comprehend what happened. Around 6:00 PM, I walked into the house and sat down and turned on the television to see this!!!!
Manatee County Deputy DUI
What had seemed like a dream in some way, just became reality. " I would've stayed home" I remember when I said those words staring and Dale and Franzyk, I was choking back tears. My phone went off as I sat there and I saw it was someone from work. I ignored the call and turned the television off. I walked out the front door and took off walking down the road in the rain. I walked about 3 miles and was back at the house about an hour later, and I was soaked. I changed clothes and went and sat in Sydney's room in the floor just staring at her stuff. I just lowered my head and started crying. I yelled at God so loud my throat hurt. I blamed him for this, as I felt he had turned his back on me after I asked him to help me for so long. Now I can only picture God looking down at me and saying " My child you asked for my help, and I answered your prayer" Sometimes your prayers are answered, just not in the way that you would like. It took me 3 1/2 years to realize that my prayers were answered. I just had to finally give up to realize it.
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